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 So I’ve been researching weightloss tips and different ways to best lose weight and I’m learning some great things. This morning however I came across an article on www.thedietchannel.com/General-Dieting-Tips.htm and it is about 8 tips for losing weight and keeping it off. The number 5 tip was about having gradual changes and them being the best changes to make.

5.   Gradual changes are best for losing weight

Gradually ease into your diet if possible. Many diet programs allow you to do this. Remember that small changes are easier to stick with than drastic ones. Start by always leaving a little extra on your plate, or drinking water instead of soda. Smaller changes are also more likely to remain with you when the duration of your diet is complete. Aim for behavior-change goals that you know you will be able to maintain over years, not just weeks.

 After reading this particular tip it made me feel really good because I’ve needed something that says, “Jessica the little things you are doing are going to pay off.” Well the part that says about cutting out pop and just drinking water is something that i’ve been doing for the last week and a half. I have the occasional pop but nothing like the 3 or 4 20oz bottles I used to have every day. Since last Tuesday I’ve lost 7 pounds. I’m not sure how intentional it was. In fact I don’t think it was all that intentional but I know that I’m feeling good because I know the little things I’m doing are going to pay off in the end.

 i don’t know who reads these if anyone and I don’t think it bothers me that no one does. I just like having a place to vent to or share my excitment to. LOL

 So I’ve started excerising or riding my exercise bike I should say and I was doing reasonably well but then Sunday and Monday I just didn’t do it. It could be that there’s a lot going on or that I’m just too lazy. I’m leaning towards the later. LOL But in all seriousness I am going to get back on and keep working because I’m just tired of looking the way that I do. Regardless of what people think or so I’m just tired of not feeling physically happy. On top of all that there is a concern over some lumps that have been found in my breast. The doctor says that she’s pretty sure it’s just infected lymphnodes but she’s running tests and things to be sure. There is also a lump under my arm which could or could not be the same thing. I’ve also been struggling with some EXTREME fatique. So extreme that falling asleep is the only thing I want to do anymore. So this has also contributed to the lack of wanting to exercise. Who would want to exercise when they are too tired to even think? LOL So the doctor ordered more tests for sleep aepnea and all that jazz. So right now I’m just biding my time to get through all the medical stuff and then I’ll hit it hard once I know answers. But I’m still getting on the bike tonight. LOL

 Well it’s been several years since I’ve been on here and I would like to say in those several years that I’ve successfully reached my goals and that I’m slender and beautiful but that’s not anywhere near the truth. I’m still extremely heavy and though it’s 14 lbs less than I weighed last time I was on here, it’s definitely not much of an improvement. But I’m back and I’m seriously ready to do something about it this time. My boyfriend tells me that I’m beautiful and perfect because he likes bigger girls but I’m not happy and I know that he loves me as is but I can’t love myself as is and I want to change. Also I’m getting closer to the stage where settling down and starting a family is coming into play and I though I may never be skinny I want to be healthy so that I don’t have a hard time starting that family. So here we go again and all the support I can get would be greatly appreciated. Thank so much!

Well it’s been a couple weeks since I was last on. I’m trying to get myself to the end of the school year (seven more school days) and then hit things hard this summer. My weight has flucuated with in a three pound mark, so at least it’s not more then that. I haven’t gone to the Y since last Tuesday when I got sick but like I said, I’m trying to get through the end of the year. So I think I’ll start back up next Monday morning. I need to get back on track and I know I will once the stress of work and other things in life stop hounding me for now.

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 Well I thought I would check in. I’ll be on more often now. :) :)

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 So this evening I was supposed to go on a date with a gentleman that I have been talking to for about a month. This evening was supposed to be our first meeting in person and let me tell ya…I was pumped for this. The guy is fabulous, a good Christian guy who just seems to fit into who I envisioned myself with in life.

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 Well he’s a really busy guy and I haven’t talked to him since Monday when he asked me out and we didn’t get to set the actual plans because he had to get to a softball game. Well today is the supposed day and I have yet to hear from him and I have no way to get in contact with him except through the email and I’ve done that. I’m flippin’ out that he’s going to bail on me and I’ve set myself up for disappointment again.

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  i’m so tired of putting myself out there only to be brought down again and I’m really honestly about to throw in the towel. Well this has put me on a weight-loss discouragement.I keep losing weight because I’m not able to keep food down but other than that. I’m so discouraged in all forms of life right now. I need help!!!!

 Well this morning I went to the Y to work out but I only got to work out for about a 1/2 hour. I did all strength training for that 1/2 hour and even though I didn’t get any cardio in, I don’t feel bad because I missed it. I feel good that I made myself get out of bed and go.

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 Life has been crappy lately and I’m trying to get myself past that point and turn it in for the betterment of myself. So I’m hoping that this plan is going to pay off. But I guess time will tell.

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 I’m looking forward to a better week then last week. I have 23 days left of school and then a whole summer stretched out before me to try to figure out what God has in store for me next. I’m hoping it’s a better job teaching. But we’ll see.

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 I guess that’s all for today. More on another day. Just needed to get back into life and the swing of things. Hope everyone reading has had a good day. I have but i’m also glad that I get to go home soon and just hang out for the evening

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Keep positive.

Okay so this morning I started going back to the Y after not being there for three weeks and let me tell ya…I’m beat. But I feel fantastic at the same time. I know that I’m doing something good for myself and that I’m going to look and feel better by going. That’s how I felt for two months while I was going. Life even feels a little more normal now that i’m back to a routine like that.

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I’ve also started my food journal again. Where I write what I eat, when I eat it and all the calories, carbs, protein, and fat that it has in it so I know if I’m reaching my daily alotment or not. I’ve also started reading this book, it’s call Calorie Queens by Jackie Scott and Diana Scott Kellum. A mother and daughter who together lost over 300 pounds. So far it’s pretty good.I’m learning a lot and it’s re-establishing the faith that I have had in myself but lost for a while. I’m looking forward tro being a success story.

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Well that’s all for now. More later.

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 So last night I started on the new church volleyball league. There are seven total teams and for the next two months on Tuesday nights we will meet together to play volleyball. It was great fun, but when waking up this morning at five to go to the Y I lost all motivation to go because (and yes, I know it’s a lousy excuse) I played volleyball last night so doesn’t that count for something.

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 Well three weeks ago things really started to go down hill. My best friend was in an accident of sorts and so I was always at the hospital, then the next week I had spring break and went to my parent’s house and did absolutely nothing for those few days and then this last week my brother and his family moved out of state and I used that sadness as another excuse. I’m just not motivated anymore.

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 I loved going and working out and I loved how I felt and started to love how my body was changing and people would notice that I’m doing something good because I look “great”, but lately…I have no will to want to go work out.

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 I told myself yesturday that this morning was going to be the day that I start back but then when I woke up this morning I talked myself out of it. I’m bound and determined that I’m starting back tomorrow but I need something that will get me out of bed in the morning. Any suggestions on how to get my motivation back would be fabulous.

 So this morning I was going to get up and go to the YMCA when it opened this morning at 5:30. I haven’t gone in a ocuple weeks due to some things that have been going on. But I didn’t get there. So right now I feel like poop because I should have gone and I didn’t. But mark my words, starting to tomorrow morning I’m gettin’ back in the game. i will go to the gym and I will continue to lose weight.

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 Well that’s all the ramblings I have for now.

 So this is my first day on buddyslim and at this current moment…I love it. I haven’t had time to really dive into the forums yet but I’m gettin’ ready to do that. I feel good about this choice that I’ve made and knowing that I’m addicted to myspace, this is like the weight watchers version of it and I think it will be easier to remember to jump on here every day instead of Biggest Loser. I love the Biggest Loser but this thing is free so I’m excited about that. Anyway, that’s all for the first journal blog.